#RunAway

"You sometimes want to disappear, but all you really want is to be found." 
-Some Instagram Meme 
Some days I wish I could run away from it all: the thoughts..the feelings..the emotions. I wished I could step away and come back, and things in my life could be perfect. So when I sat down and thought about how my anxiety flared up the other night, maybe it's not about running away. Perhaps it's just as simple as walking away. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. 
"A little less mercy makes the world less cold and more just."
- Pope Francis 
I slept all day Tuesday. I hardly ate and drank anything. I just slept. I didn't answer my phone and wasn't present on social media. I needed to be away from the world for a while. I needed to take time for myself. I needed to take time to sort my thoughts out. It's weird. One moment I was fine, and the next, I felt as if my head was a burning building and everything was Collapsing. I was officially in my thoughts was in overload mode. And at that point, there was no escaping them. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. 
"Progress is a process & sometimes shit gets hard and you just need a min." 
-A Very Special Person in My Life Right Now
It took a day and some hours. But I finally got myself out of the funk. Pulled me out of the deep depression thoughts. I Pulled myself out of the thoughts of me being less than a woman. Here I am, sitting, writing my second book. Here I am sitting, creating new content and planning events for my brand. Here I am creating a training manual for my job. Every thought I had that didn't validate me as a woman went away. I am that bitch! I am that woman. I'm not an ordinary female; therefore, I can't have anyone around me that does not feel the same. Cheer up, kid. You got this! See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.