#Lately

“It’s not your job to keep the peace of those who have caused chaos in your life. Your only job is to protect your peace and happiness at whatever cost.”
-Kristen Corley

Lately, I have been working on healing myself. If that means sitting alone in silence for a while then I do that. If that means crying and feeling every emotion instead of lashing out then I do that. To my surprise, there was and still is a lot of clarity and perspective regarding my situation. You can’t change a person. Their behavior is their behavior but what can control is how I respond to things. What I can control is being the best mother I can be for my daughter. What I can control is what I will deal with and what I refuse to deal with when it comes to co-parenting. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. 

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”-Philippians 4:6-7

Lately, my healing has been on the spiritual side more than anything. I asked myself, “How can I heal from someone that I have so much hate and anger towards? How can I move forward with trying to co-parent if I have all this built-up anger towards this person?” I had to ask God to help me forgive the person who hurt me so much so that I could move forward in my life. And friends let me tell you this just because you forgive a person doesn't mean they can overstep their boundaries. Forgive them for you but still stand on business. See the irony in this? All more reasons why not to date her. 

“As bad as you wanna address it, sometimes it’s best to let God defend you. He saw it too.”
-Someone's Instagram meme

I have been learning what it means to let go and let GOD! I was the chick that used to be quick to respond to the internet beef. As of Lately, I can truly give two F’s of what someone said, did, lied, about me. I know the truth. God knows the truth. And truth be told some things are not worth even arguing about at all. Why give energy to a dead situation knowing it will disturb your peace? See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. 

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